My cataclysmal existence

So today in World Lit we were dicussing a pathetic existence in a story and got on the subject of how those amazing middle class citizens are fooling themselves if they want to be middle class, we are after all a capitalistic society so they are close enough to reach but not touch happiness.

Problem :

I want to be a Mom, a good one, thus the choice to be a teacher it is one of the best jobs to have and be a dedicated parent. Time off, decent pay, summers off, and most importantly a job I am going to hopefully be great at. This is somewhat of an uncapitalistic move due to me getting a bigger degree than the job in my opinion and many other's opinion's. My father would be overjoyed to find out my sister, brother's fiance, and I were quiting the Teaching Profession. The catch with this is I want to be a mom, so spending money, that I had to work 6 days a week over 40 hours a week, on a yacht - would not make me happy. Less money and more time with kids and my husband would make me happier. Now granted not many poor people are happy at being poor, but you can be poor and happy. To many times have I heard the homemade stuff was always better than the store bought. I could be poor and happy, I could be middle class and exstatic, and I have a feeling I could be rich and living. Money can ruin a child's relationship with parents, even the best children. Money can make people work a different way. When is enough money enough? However when you make enough to support yourself buy the little extras, and have a family that is more important than money, that is being rich to me. Money makes things nicer in that situation, but when you get accustomed to money it is hard to not have it, it becomes an addiction. I am not a capitalistic addict, I don't need the finer things in life, I like them but don't need them. I am a product of the 80's born with a 50's mind, I want a family, I want to be my family.

Weird that my family is the people who don't understand this. Mom, it will be your downfall. Dad, capitalist addict, a bad one too. Sister, doesn't see how you need family, and how the family is a chore but a greater reward. Brother, well he is a free spirit, who knows family is there. Notice, the one that is missing the link that gives the family it's center. But, every thing needs a core, and without the core the mass turns into a different shape, with different connections.

As my professor said, I am afraid that if I stop giving my kid money i'll never see him. The family eats a lot of money, but what does the family give you back. Family dinner nights, where the gossip of the cousins makes everyone laugh, where the Grandma can't let the baby go, and where the kid's table always exists even if the kids are 30-20. The truth is when the family will be there for the goods and the bads, the bigger marriage of many people not just two.